never meet anyone sounds scary

Ahahaha 0 actually

Well not necessarily, like today I wanted it but I can’t but I feel fine with that. Maybe it’s because I didn’t have sex much before in my relationship that now I have this urgency to fill it all in. And no, I have friendships with people just fine and even some guys my friends boyfriend brings and it’s fine, I don’t want to do anything with them obviously. And no no health issues other than being horny allot

Literally… like I couldn’t care less for his Instagram it was just the action of lying like for what 😂😂

fuck . I deleted it. They did a good job tho, basically what I was saying, but more formal lol

I know. But when I’m in a relationship with someone I don’t care for those things. When I was with my ex, I was so emotionally connected that like I didn’t care or like NEED it. We were also long distance (7hrs) so we didn’t see each other as much as we wanted but I felt okay. But now since it’s over and I’m single, I’m craving it much much more. I think I’ll take it easy tho, I will try to regulate my sexual emotions

I know this. The thing is, I’m not looking for a relationship right now because I’m not emotionally ready to be committed to someone. I am fully capable of being independant, I love doing things by myself. I prefer it than being with someone to be honest. But now it’s just the physical touch I crave too much. I don’t even want an emotional connection with this guy

Not necessarily. I’m not using sex as a pain coping mechanism like for my grief of my relationship. But I think it’s just I enjoy it so much that I want it everyday? I hope I don’t sound dumb right now but yeah, I just crave it too much I guess. Like I’ll get upset if like I don’t get it, that is probably what is bad.

Oh I’ve tried therapy and surprisingly, advice online seems to help me more.

I guess yeah, I just haven’t felt this rebound feeling in years so like it’s a shock to me. I feel nothing but feel so good at the same time. What the fuck? lol.

Stop ily. I’m gonna use this

See that’s the issue… how do I know if I’m using sex as a coping mechanism or not? I stopped grieving the breakup as soon as I saw this other guy. We didn’t have sex the first time though but I was already like getting it off my mind so idk. But now I’m addicted to sex. Lol. And you’re right, I don’t feel at harm with this guy, maybe he’s an asshole but tbh idc, i mean, the sex is good lol. I’m giving him same energy tho so I guess im chilling

What if in the future I like someone so much but they can’t stand my past? My ex freaked out when I told him my body count lol. I’m a loyal person tho. If I am with someone I don’t give a flying fuck about anyone else but I think my ex’s reaction scared me till now. Made me feel shame

LOL I’m sorry, my brain was scattered typing this all out. I think I’m just confused on what I want

I mean yea tbh his instagram popped up and im like the fuck? Cuz I asked awhile ago and he lied and said he didn’t have. Personally I couldn’t care less about having his Instagram, but why lie lol. I told him like he doesn’t have to lie or anything because I don’t care and he said yeah ok I don’t wanna give u it get the hint lolololol. Maybe a bit toxic but the sex is good so part of me don’t care lol. And that’s true, I just worry about like STDs and stuff. I asked him tho if he’s doing anything with anyone else but he said no. But it’s hard to believe him now 😂

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I guess not always yeah. But it’s always lingering and every time it gets “better” it kinda plummets again. But I know this will pass and better things will come. It feels nice to talk to everyone on here 🩷

Yeah, I mean I know I’m not but my brain wants me to think that I am. And thanks for not being judgemental.

Yeah you’re right. I know being in pain for this is normal and it will be okay. I just hate the process :/ I miss him a lot but I also know that’s normal… it saddens me how much I tried to make things work for all my efforts to be overlooked and unappreciated. I’m sorry u got cheated on :( and I’m happy you are in a happy marriage with someone good for you 🤍I’m not looking for a new person to date but I just feel bad seeing another guy, even as just friends. I feel like I’m cheating. I know it sounds dumb but I just have this annoying guilty conscience… I’m scared. Last relationship I had was basically 3 years but after that I got so broken and I had sexual relationships with people and just found comfort and wantedness in sex. It made me numbed out. I don’t want it to happen again and I don’t think it will but I am craving physical intimacy as well. I sound like a hoe or something but idk. I also don’t want to use anyone for comfort or to dump my emotions on. I’m seeing my best friend tomorrow but idk, I don’t feel that emotionally connected with them like how I did with him obviously.

Hey, yeah im going to be turning 22 in august. I hate always feeling in pain, the heavy heart. I only have known him since the end of november but it felt like i had known in for AGES. this is whats hurting me so much. i was able to pour so much and open up about so much of my darkest and most vulnerable things that I never share with anyone. i dont have much friends, i mean i have 2 friends but idk ;| there is one guy who wants to see me and go out for hiking and stuff but i feel guilty, i am also scared that It will make me miss him more. but i need a distraction but im scared of a rebound happening.